I have gone the majority of my adult life feeling like I’m following Christ and seeking his will for my life and yet at 35 years old, God is showing me that I still have to so much to learn. This year on more than one occasion, we have found ourselves as a family in a position to make a quick decision that would have huge effects on our home. A time when we would normally weigh everything out with lists of pros and cons and try to make the best decision based on wisdom and prayer. And yet these have been decisions that needed to be made quickly. And somehow, each time, we knew exactly what God wanted us to do. What we didn’t know is how it would affect us long term. The questions rolling through our minds, as the days passed; “How will this affect us financially? , How will this affect us emotionally? How will this affect our children? What if we have regrets?”. No plans. And honestly, if we had written out our own plans, we would have talked ourselves out of saying yes. And all the while, feeling like God was asking us, “DO YOU TRUST ME?” Asking us to step forward and trust that HE will work it out. Now, I’ve seen Gods provision many times in my life and I have never doubted that his plan for my life is good. But this is different. It reminds me of when I went indoor rock climbing, and I was so excited to climb straight up the highest wall. And then she said “Ok, now “let go and jump backwards.” My brain knew that I was attached to that bungee. My brain knew that I would land safely on the ground. And yet there I was paralyzed in fear. That’s how we are with God so often. He wants us to stop trying to work out the details, to just jump with the reassurance that He will land us on that solid ground. But man, the first few times can be so challenging! We have to push through our fear. As we have stepped out and are living day by day, God has shown me how amazing it is when we grasp this kind of trust in him. I love the surprises and blessings that emerge. Not to say that I’ve not shed some tears in fear, frustration and doubt, but I’ve pushed through it. Explaining to God that I will trust him when I don’t see the next step. I will trust him when I don’t see the next door. I’m learning to follow blindly. It’s a step further in our walk with Christ. I’m always here to share my journey with my sisters-in-Christ because I know that you are walking the same walk that I am. And many of you are wondering if you’re alone in your struggles. If God has you in a situation right now or you feel like he’s calling you to make a decision that requires you to trust him and step out in faith, know that you’re not alone! Be encouraged! The word of God says that God told Joshua in Chapter 1 VS 9, “Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go". Know that as you follow blindly, even when you feel scared, or even discouraged, you are not alone. He is with you wherever you go! He’s not asking you to have all the answers. That’s the beauty of it friends. He’s asking us to trust that HE does!
Love in Christ,
Nikki Douglas